Reflection is a Funny Ol' Thing

Reflection is a Funny Ol' Thing 

Its been a long time (it feels) since I've done a post like this, posts like this that used to be so regular on here. Ones where, whilst reading back on a few this week, I used to talking about everything going on in my life. I don't know whether it mean I've become more private about my life online or whether this blog is less of a life-line for me now. But, rewinding back a few years back, this blog was my everything (as sad as it sounds), I would work in the week full time and blog non-stop on the weekends, it was my outlet to pour out my thoughts and what's going on in my life..



But, having read back on some of my post from 2017 and before, I couldn't believe how much I would pour into my blog, updates everyday of what I was doing, thinking and planning - it just got me thinking. I probably have become more private about my life online, this is probably just a natural thing though as you grow up. I mainly keep my relationship quite private online just because I want to, and generally what I upload to Instagram is more snippets more than life updates.

I do think though this is a full reflection of how comfortable and content I am with my life at the moment. Looking  (and thinking) back to a few years ago, I was a completely different person, who really needed the fresh start I got when I moved to university. It was actually this blog post from November 2017 that triggered this whole reflection I'm having right now as I just can't believe how different my life is now to a few years back (completely for the better)

Reflection really is a funny thing, and with all this spare time on our hands now, it's easy enough to think back to past times. Before university I was a bit lost if I think about it, I needed a fresh start as I said in this blog post and to be honest, kind of lived my life online rather than in person. Having a job you hate with little social life isn't good mentally, and I can clearly see how much this blog meant to me at the time. It kept me sane, triggered my creativity where it felt it was being dragged away in my 'real job'. I feel like this is why I could never delete or discard this blog, no matter how few and far between posts may get now. Because for 19 year old Lisa, this was all she had to keep her going, but it couldn't have carried on.

When I read back on my posts I can just see how unhappy that period of my life was and despite the stresses and strains life currently has. I have never been this content with my life, my friends, my family, my boyfriend; this is exactly what the old Lisa wanted and I feel so proud I came out the other side.

What I'm trying to say really is, its good to reminisce sometimes. It makes you appreciate what you have now - like I said, one of my old blog posts really triggered a feeling inside me of so many emotions I can't describe. But, it just made me appreciate the here and now, yes I may not put as much effort into this blog as I used to, but my actual life is completely flipped on its head (in a good way) to how it used to be. Life is a funny thing and reflecting back can sometimes be the biggest mood-booster there is - and as I said in that post, there really is power in a fresh start, because that's exactly how I got to this amazing point in my life right now.

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